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Where has all the good in this life gone?

Let’s face it, this America is in turmoil. We live in a Country where tragedy is a normal occurrence. I think we can all agree that it shouldn’t be normal to read headlines like what has happened in Texas, Ohio, and California. It’s ridiculous that we can see all of these “Thoughts and Prayers” but never a solution?

Let’s look at the elephant in the room here, gun control. I’m no expert on guns. I have never fired one and yet even I understand the view of having one as protection. I understand that the way the second amendment is written that we have an inherit right to “bare arms.” However, at what point does a right superseded our very survival? I don’t mean this as a way of saying, “We need more guns!”

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Obviously, Texas is a state that doesn’t have a problem with guns but 20 people were killed there. The gunman survived and was taken into custody. In the state with all the “lawful gun owners/open carry is allowed” no one stopped to take this guy out before he killed 20 people? I’m pretty sure, more guns is not the answer. Just recently the NRA in Texas was boasting about how they managed to loosen gun laws there. This shouldn’t be the way things are. Take a look at this:

Listening to this session from back in 2016 before Obama left office, maybe now is a good time to talk about Gun Control? I don’t know, maybe something like a Driver’s License? Background checks? At this point something is better than nothing right?

Some people might argue that I might not get it. What I might not get is that when the Amendment was written, it was to protect the people from the Government. Should the Government go against the people, the people would have a means to defend themselves.

Just an FYI, as a Hawaiian, I actually do get it. Talking with people here in the mainland, most have no idea of how Hawaii first became a territory, then a state. It wasn’t like someone came over and was like, “Hey would you like to become part of the United States of America?” Nope. It was taken at gun point. Weird right?

Now let me ask this; if the government would do something so tyrannic as to subvert it’s people into something that would force you to take up arms, who do you think it is that you will be fighting against? Would it be the government or would it be the people who are employed by the government? You know, the police, our military, the men and women who are meant to protect the people. Are you going to fight back against them? Are you going to take up arms against those who are only trying to do their jobs?

I do not know the answers and I won’t pretend to, but now is as good a time as any to start the conversation. No matter what the man baby in office has to say. Now is the time to have this conversation. I don’t care about the ideals of a Dems vs Reps. Red vs Blue. What I do care about is people being murdered in public by those who only wish to bring harm to other people. Not hunting for sport. Not for the love of shooting guns. Not for protection. These individuals sought to kill people. PEOPLE!

Remember, the Constitution starts out with the words, “We the People” not the corporations/politicians. We the People

Goodbye 2018

Let’s face it, every year that ticks by we always think about the bad the things that have happened over the year. Loss, hardship, missed opportunities, losing loved ones and so forth. Every year is met with challenges and some of those we can’t do anything about. Then there’s planning what you want for the new year. This is never ever as easy as you want it to be. The truth is though, we need to stop thinking that way.
Every year it’s the same thing, be healthy, save money, do something fantastic, get that big promotion, make a lifestyle change. Look, that’s all fine and dandy but how many years have gone by and you’ve accomplished that. We all have lofty goals for this one life that we are all given but that’s just it, we only get one. Why are you thinking so small? Stop with all of that. Make some damn goals! This year I’m setting up my goals for life. So here we go.

Goal #1 – Be Humble

Let’s start out by being more humble with what I have. It’s true, there is a lot of want in this world. We live and die by the needs of commerce. There are things in this world that can be bought that will bring a slight bit of happiness for a period of time.

This year I finally made the move to upgrade my computer so that I can stream and play games better. I got everything setup and running and that was great. Then the first few weeks, I really didn’t bother doing much on it because I was more concerned with the amount of money I spent on it. It probably could have waited just a little bit longer but I had to have it. As of right now though, I don’t regret it. It’s done and now it’s time to make something of it.

I have been streaming again here and there. Making new content on my Twitch page and interacting with new viewers. My content hasn’t exactly changed but my relief that the system is working much better than it used to is a great feeling.

Basically, I just need to humble myself.

Goal #2 – Work on buying a home

It’s really time I got my ass out of paying rent. A lot of people say that owning a home is extremely hard and at times not worth it, but like my first goal, it’s hard to be humble about what you have when all you’re paying for is a place to rest your head. Sure, it’s home but I’m not paying for something I can call mine. I’m paying for something that I’m basically borrowing. I want to start owning what I’m putting my money into.

When I decided to buy my car instead of leasing, it was because I’m capable of taking care of my car for many years to come. Sure, the newest and latest cars will always have a draw to them, but at the end of the loan I’ll have a car I own without owing anymore money. Renting an apartment/home just feels so empty when you realize that it’s not yours. So this year, I’m going to be making major strides to make a home purchase. Nothing extravagant but something I can call mine.

Goal #3 – See more of the world

This one has been a goal for a while but it needs to happen. My biggest hurdle has been my damn passport and I for real needs to get that damn thing. I’ve been slacking so hard on that but this year I will work on getting it and then the world will be mine. I believe I have enough vacation time already to travel around the world in 40 days but I’m not going to do it all at one time. I’m only 36 right now and I got many years to see what this world has to offer.

Goal #4 – Stay healthy in body and mind

I’m sure I’ve talked about it with a lot of people that my acid reflux has been a problem for many many years but only this year have I kept up with it. It has gotten much better but now I need to make sure my body is happy.

There are a few things I haven’t been doing since I left Hawaii and exercise is absolutely one of those things. I used to have abs, tone legs, and as someone once put it, “OMG You have back dimples. That’s sexy.” Now a days I’ve been letting a lot of my old self slip. It has nothing to do really with my capability to exercise, I just haven’t cared at all is the problem. I’m realizing though that I’m getting fucking old and if I don’t stay in some manageable state of health, I won’t have that opportunity to see the world. I won’t be able to enjoy the home I eventually bought. I won’t be able to do a great many things.

My mind is much of the same. 2018 was a painful year and while I had many successes professionally, there was a lot of things that went wrong.

Goal #5 – Publish a novel 

This one is a funny one. I remember high school as being a time that I couldn’t give a shit about English. Sure I read a book here and there but it was nothing that I took to heart as something I’d like to create. Today though, there are so many stories and ideas in my head that I’d love to turn into a novel. Nothing special just a short story maybe or even a trilogy.

All in all though, this is just a list of life goals. This isn’t all of them, but this is the list that I’m starting on for 2019. Barring some dick bag of a President getting in the way of all this happening is still up in the air but I have set some goals and I plan on sticking to it.